As I sit in this room watching you and staring at all of the machines your are hooked up to, it makes me scared. I realize though that I have to have strength because you do. You have been so strong through this. You have inspired me to be a better and stronger person. I will always be here for you, I will never leave you. I am proud to say "I am his mother". The love I felt the day you were born is indescribable and it only becomes more and more intense everyday. I just wish I could walk in this room and not cry. It's not just that I am sad, I am ecstatic that you are alive and that I can watch your precious heart beat through your open chest. Your daddy loves you so much. He keeps mommy strong. He is so upbeat and positive about everything. He will always love you and take care of you. He will always be there for you. I cant wait for the years to come, I cant wait to see you crawl, hear your first word, see you walk, laugh, play, cry and be a child of God. I love you Gavin and no one can take that away. I cant wait for your first day of kindergarten and the day you graduate from high school, why? because that will be another milestone in your life and I will be so proud of all you have accomplished. You amaze me, oh how I love you more than life itself. Stay strong for momma and I promise to stay strong for you.
I love you buddy!
½ OF AN ANGELS HEART
It's a beautiful day up in heaven. Jesus is rounding up his tiniest angels, to go live on earth, and be born. One of the sweetest angels says to Jesus "I don't want to leave, I like it here, and I will miss you". He reassures the scared little angel that everything will be okay, and that the angel is just going for a visit. The little angel is still not swayed on this idea. So Jesus kneels down, and says, "How about if you leave half of your heart here with me and take the other half with you, will that be okay?" The angel smiles and says, "I guess that will work". But the little angel is still a little scared. He asks, "Will I be okay with only half of my heart?" Jesus replies, "Of course you will, I have other angels there that will help out, and you will be fine." Then Jesus gives the angel more details about his plan. He says "When you are born, your mommy will be scared, so you have to be strong, and when you feel weak just remember that I have the other half of your heart." "Enjoy your time with your family, play and laugh everyday." "And when its time to come back to heaven, I will make your heart whole again. Always remember that you are not broken, just torn between two loves."